FearLess
Fear is future oriented. It’s imagining what could go wrong but hasn’t yet. It’s hiding under self judgement, comparison and envy. Fear holds you in a pattern of self doubt. Being chronically ill has...
View ArticleOk?!!?
I’m not always OK. This morning I was crying my full on big ugly cry in my favorite corner of my favorite place in the world – the public library. They know me there, so it was a bit of a scene....
View ArticleBeing An Advocate
Dreamers are given the gift to believe, and believing is life changing. Believing means we can be hopeful and confident about the future, and that’s what gets me through the roughest days. I have a...
View ArticleA Letter to Pre-Sick Me
Dear Ellie of June 2014, On June 18th, 2014, you will get your first MS diagnosis. The type of MS you have will be changed a few times over the coming years. You’ll end up with Malignant MS, the...
View ArticleHow To Be Honest About Your Limitations
Sometimes someone will accuse us spoonies of not doing enough, and we may feel bad and doubt our own judgment and wonder if we really are capable of more. As chronic pain patients our energy levels...
View ArticleCan you really be happy with Fibro?
I had a conversation this week with an old school friend, one that originally made me very angry. I felt victimised and questioned my own ability to judge happiness. When I compare my life now to both...
View ArticleWhat Chronic Illness Taught Me About Kindness
There’s a point in your life when you realize that you are different. It can be as simple as having different tastes in music than your friends. You might love listening to show tunes ( even as a 10...
View ArticlePeeling away the layers?
One of the hardest things to admit to yourself and others when you have a chronic illness is just how much it changes you. You have to let go of in most cases everything you thought made you the...
View ArticleMy Health Secret
I have a secret. It’s kind of surprising, considering the things I write about, but it’s there nonetheless. My MS and TN aren’t secrets. I’ve written about them here and on other blogs. I’ve written...
View ArticleStop Apologising for your life.
I used to always apologise for things I can’t control, things that I have no choice but to live with. These things made me feel like a bad and horrible person, and try as I might to prevent it I...
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